my name is sebastian. i have been following john sherman for some time now, from the netherlands. i saw him on youtube, and am reading "look at yourself".
i took a look at myself, as described by john. first thing that i noticed is that this is more authentic than a lot of advaitic self-inquiry, where i subconsciously look for an 'absence' of self, or i look for a spaciousness. when i took this fresh new look at me as a person, as I sitting here, there was a tremendous feeling of individuality with the whole personae thing going on. can anyone give me any feedback on this experience?
second, and this still occurs, is when i feel into the feeling of being me, and recollect memories from the past, simple memories of me as a child sitting in front of the tv, what has always been the same is being felt especially in the heart. again, any feedback on this experience?
another question. i have followed the 'headless way' of douglas harding for a long time, i find some similarities with john & carla's work. does anyone have experience with the headless seeing, and can one make a comparisson there?
with this comes my last sharing of experience for now; i feel a dread that this what is being offered in the end will again disappoint me. another path, another promise. i feel dreadful about the idea of throwing myself on these tracks, devote myself to this for some years, and then realize i have been missing out on life altogether, while my deepest wish is just to be fulfilled, not only for myself but also as a father to my 10 month old son.
i would be very grateful if someone could comment on this.
all the best,
from the netherlands,